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Thursday, 24 September 2009

  • I Don't Know If I Like This

    I saw him a couple days ago. It was the first time since February. I'd talked to him off and on since, but nothing really major.

    So, when I saw him, I didn't know what it would be like. Memories are lasting, but their vividness tends to fade. I think I like him, which sucks. I remember having crushes from way back and what used to be a rush is now just a reason for anxiety, awkwardness, and hesitancy. I haven't had a crush in years and this bothers me. I'm not one to share my personal issues with random people. I even have a hard time sharing with some friends, but there have been moments that I wanted to share with him. That's new for me. That's good for me. To be fair though, I went into our friendship being completely honest and open, so maybe it's just an extension of the friendship we've built.

    He makes me smile. . . cheese and crackers.

    The good thing is that there's nothing to do about it. The bad thing is that the wheels are turning in my brain.

    Don't mind me.

Wednesday, 02 September 2009

  • Monday, I went to work thinking "I'm going to take a day off this week." Nothing major, just needing a day to myself. Monday night I get home and get a call from Shawn. "What are you doing Wednesday" she asks? "Going to work, why what's up." "I am getting married Wednesday," she says.

    "No, you aren't."

    "Yes, I am." This continues for about a minute and a half.

    "We signed the marriage certificate today. Wanna see the ring?"

    "No, I don't want to see the ring," I say, "I want to see the marriage certificate."

    She comes over and we talk for about half an hour.

     

    And, today, she became Mrs. Jones.

    I'd been saying for like two years that I wanted a wedding to go to. I wasn't expecting one this quickly. I also thought I was going to be taking Friday off from work. Not so much . . .

Friday, 03 July 2009

  • Part Two

    About three weeks ago I posted an entry about taking better care of my hair. I must say, I read most of the book then got distracted (I had two other books to read that weekend). I will get back to it one day. Some of the tips seemed pretty cool. I am now using a deep conditioner every week, which is one of the tips for ladies who wash their hair once a week. I am also looking for a clarifying shampoo (which I could not find in CVS believe it or not). It is supposed to rid of the hair of any remaining stuff in/on the hair. I got my ends trimmed, which is a no-brainer I just hadn't got it done. I had to get a bit more than I wanted cut off, but it was worth it.

    One of the tips that the author offers is to wash hair while it's braided. She suggests 4-6 braids and shampooing and conditioning them. I don't know about this step as I think the scalp needs to be paid attention to and braids would seem to prevent that.

    However, I did buy a hair dryer and some heat protection for my hair (the heat protection was a suggestion of the author as well). The first week I went through the whole process, but I didn't like the way my hair turned out. That week I used Dr. Miracle's Deep Conditioning Treatment. The second week I used the hair dryer and heat protection and my hair turned out GREAT. I used John Freida's Heat Defeat Protective Styling Spray and Organic Root Stimulator's Hair Mayonnaise. I'm trying to figure out if the conditioning treatment matters so, I'll be going back to the Dr. Miracle's too see if I like it. Either way, I'm actually looking forward to taking care of it every week now.

Monday, 15 June 2009

  • Crazy Mane!

    So, I definitely do not write in this thing often. My life, these days, is not very rollercoaster-ish. I have the extreme highs (Miami, graduation, etc.) and the extreme lows (my cousin's death, my house fire, and my aunt's cancer), but, in between those, my days are mostly thank God I'm alive and drama free (for the most part).

    Anyway, I decided to blog about something that I am EXTREMELY excited about . . .
    My hair.
    Not the state that it is in now, but hopefully the state that it will be in in about a year or two.

    I was bored with it and decided to get a relaxer sometime in December. Then I got a touch-up in Feb and again in April. Now, I am going natural (again), lol. I'm not one of those chicks who are caught up in what natural hair means to my identity. I'm black, people see it, I know it, my hair is and has always been an extension of it. However, I've been lacking on my end when it comes to taking care of it, both relaxed and natural. So, I'm taking action and doing a couple things.

    1. I ordered "Grow It: How To Grow Afro-Textured Hair To Maximum Lengths In The Shortest Time (Paperback)" from Amazon and will be reading it asap. The reviews were cool and I am looking forward to seeing what tips and tricks that I can use on myself.
    2. I am using Head and Shoulders to get my scalp in better condition.
    3. I am using a deep conditioner in the hopes that I'll bring more moisture back to my scalp and my hair itself.
    4. I'm limiting the heat. I am trying to go sans heat or either use as little as possible.

    I'm looking forward to writing updates. FUN! 

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • Heartbroken

    I heard my grandmother cry today.

    My cousin who was in prison committed suicide.

    I heard my grandmother cry the mostful painful cry I've ever heard, followed by my uncle, and then my own mother.

     I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell my brothers.

    I am in pain.